they say an end can be a start ||

boston is so beautiful. my head aches, my heart aches.
now I know how to ruin your life and dreams in 30 seconds.
now I know how it feels to be hospitalized.
now I know that I wanna live, even if I'm crying so much it feels like I'm gonna explode.
now I know how beautiful life can be, even if you're just rolling around in the grass.

and I'm so thankful for the four months I got and I'm gonna turn this around. it's gonna be good someday. and my last days here will be nothing but amazing.