like a rainbow 'round my heart

cause I wanna spend this evening,
breathin' in your fragrance

my my my

definition of independence:

the state or quality of being independent; freedom from dependence; exemption from reliance on, or control by, others; self-subsistence or maintenance; direction of one's own affairs without interference.

yesterday was my last night out for a while. pre party with grilled meat, strawberries, guitar hero and ice cream. TC with erik, anton, leffe, matte, danni and anna. dancing to surprisingly great songs and laughs to sex stories. afterwards it was cold hands, sandwiches and icecream. today date with anna at mekka with sandwich, cake and tea. talks about rellations, relations, relations. soft work and a quick visit to danni. tomorrow; sex and the city! outstandingly good.

sisterhood

ah, she's home! the funniest girl ever, my lovely lovely sister who does crazy gestures to her great stories and you just have to laugh. we had a real classical sister's night with a huge snack attack and we couldn't stop hugging each other. talked through the latest months with a chronological list of guys. far too late, we finally rolled into bed and fell asleep after huge attacks of laughter.

today I had lunch in the park with maggie and anna. awesome weather, awesome subjects and awesome girls. then we strolled around town and it's been an awesome day.
6 days left of work. 7 till I'm out of the country and ohmygod, I have so much to do!

cosy

it's been raining all day. I've been doing absolutely nothing. long sleep in , meatballs for breakfast, a bus ride later and all afternoon on the kitchen sofa with my sister's laptop. my mum and I watched step up and ate fruit salad and I get such weird excitements all the time. fall. yellow and orange leafs. hot chocolate and tea. hours at cafés. crispy air. to be totally devoted and lose yourself into something.

soundtrack:
the klerks - she she she
regina spector - fidelity
south fm - dear claudia
staffan hellstrand - lilla fågel blå
martin sexton - diner
chris brown - with you
lisa miskovsky - another shape of my heart
elin sigvardsson - antidote
samantha jade - step up

(eleven and counting)

midsummer

oh, I've had a weekend in world class. it's going to the history as the best midsummer ever. and my friends are beyond explanation, god I love them! laughter+internal jokes+sunshine equals outstanding.

it is love, I tell you.

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countdown

aaaah! it's finally settled and booked! 57 seven days since the hospital, 49 days since I left boston, and even though I've known it in my heart and mind all the time, it feels so incredible great that I have it on paper. I'm going back! almost seven weeks at the place I love the most, with people who means the world to me. I got everything that I wanted, and I'm gonna end it with a roadtrip. this can't be anything else but awesome. 16 days to go. 4 of july 7.50 pm. :D

and all the fishes in the sea
could not be happier than me

relaxing routine

I've been home and done all the stuff I usually do. lie on the couch, talk to my mum, read, eat and my whole beauty routine. dye my hair, shave my legs, paint my toenails and do my facial. I also went out running around the lake in the evening sun while linda was horseback riding. plus I baked 68 cinnamon bunns and a whole bunch chocolate chip walnut brownies. yummie! and while we were eating last night all of us, we were on a roll and I couldn't stop laughing. my family is crazy.

today's not my day, cause I may be the most clumsy person in the world. but, tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow! I'm illegally excited, but the glass is freakin half-full at all times!!

this is the year

yesterday was the day I normally would have been coming home. it's weird and sad but also awesome, cause now I got six weeks left instead. and it's one year ago since I graduated. life has stopped being divided into school terms and instead periods of time. this year has turned into be first a four months period of greatness in boston and now 6 weeks of awesomeness at home. I can leave last year behind, nothing from back then connects to what I have now, and I only have to concentrate on 2008. and I'm free free free.


it's finally here, I've been waiting all of my life
this year is mine

vacation

ah, great lovely weekend. after some adventures because of friday the 13 were we missed the bus, couldn't find a taxi, and when we finally did we had to drive really relly fast, pay a lot (I got a dealyed, great birthday present) and only to be there one minute before the ferry left. it was worth it though, cause it's been one of the most relaxing weekends ever. me and kicki have been old ladys doing whatever we felt for. the cottage smelled like cottage and we slept, baked, ate, took long walks and jumped around at big rocks, got sunkissed with a stone in our backs and the sea infront of us, watched girl with a pearlearring and citizen kane, sat outside, read and didn't care at all what time it was.

but, above all, it's been silent. sometime with birds in the background, sometimes with jack johnson or håkan hellström, sometimes completely quiet. sometimes it's golden.

tonight we're gonna plan our roadtrip to stockholm, and tomorrow I'm going to my family at the countryside. on wednesday, we're finally leaving. we're gonna make the roads dangerous with our bad motherfucker t-shirts, my road rage and way of driving. ah, here we come!

predictions and rain

today, after 5 months, which only felt like a few weeks, I met sanna. what was planned to be a coffe date with only the two of us turned into being a coffe date with sara and anna. how I love the thing about running into people you know and just hang out like there are no obstacles or problems in the world or that it has been any time difference. high school made it self reminded, but in a different, better way. sanna and I read the predictions we wrote in august last year. it's funny how some things seem to turn out, and how it always, no matter how crooked the way there has been, turns out well. and how you can get what you want in so many different ways. at least now I know something happened this year, and that I am where I want to be.

this afternoon me and my sister had a late birthday picnic for me on the kitchen floor. it's raining outside and tonight it's movienight with kill bill and batman begins.

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I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take
but since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
finding myself making every possible mistake

time

oh, I love days like these! I've been so efficient so half had been enough. it's a day where you make those phonecalls and send those letters and can make crosses on your long long list. I've also had time for running to timbaland, desperate housewives, to make pancakes and bake a pie and dose off to the tv. now I'm gonna go for a walk and then eat pie and hang with my lovely roommate.

I've worked five days in a row. after a week off it takes a while to get used to, but I do love my job, and I've had time to do so much else. I've had time to sleep, to have coffe with jonas, to run, to eat tacos with anna and peter and to watch desperate housewives and eat popcorn. but above all, I've had time to go out dancing with my beloved friends. I acted young and foolish and irresponsible to go out the night before work, but I had so much fun! we went to a dead corona and the night seemed to turn in to a total bust, before we finally got passed the queue to TC and the played the remix of my cool at the dancefloor. and yesterday we watched kill bill and 300. the list of movies you have to have seen is getting shorter.

madonna - voices
sophia - oh my love
kate ryan - ella elle l'a
madonna - heartbeat
robyn - with every heartbeat

highlights

aaah, my favourite david all categories sent me the guitar demo of all our songs. and they're our songs!! in between the strings and guitars there's david and me and a hundred memories from four months. and he gave me a birthday song, called untitled, and I'm in charge of the lyrics.

this is gonna be so great so great so great.

call it fate or destiny or whatever you want
we have to find antoher word for connection

my list

things I've learnt or realized so far:

* that you can make anything happen
* that life is a crisis and a detour
* that you can eat chicken every day for four months and not get tired of it
* to believe
* that you can learn something from everyone
* that anxiety doesn't go away, it's something you have to learn how to handle
* that family exist everywhere
* that communication is the shit
* that you can make and achieve everything you thought was impossible
* to drink beer
* to appreciate peoples kindness
* that friendship is the most beautiful thing in the world, and that real friendship survives everything and anything
* that there is something called the american dream
* that prozac and alcohol is a bad combination
* that I kick ass
* that life is the best you've got
* that everything is gonna be alright

summertime

and the livin' is easy. yesterday was my mum and dad's wedding anniversary so we ate all six of us, which rarely happens. BBQ and rhubarb pie and oh, how I love them. today the weather is crazy god, I've tanned all day long, reading and relaxing. went out for a run and felt on top of the world. ate pizza for dinner, took a shower and did a facial. now I'm sitting outside with wireless internet in the evening sun. I love the fact that it's so warm you can sit outside in the middle of the night, talking with no end to all the words. and I love the difference those words make.

and!!! I've learned how to drive a motorcycle. I'm no pro, but I can drive by myself 65km/h and it's one of the greatest freedom feelings in the world.

tonight me and my sister are gonna watch made of honor and eat homemade moisturized chocolate cake till we puke. it's a good life and it's the truth I'm tellin' ya.

michelle branch - find your way back

my cool

oh, la la la life is wonderful. it's summer warmth outside, it's june, in 18 days we're on our way to stockholm and I've had yet antoher awesome weekend. it started thursday night with me and danni moving into leffe and anton's. after that it's only been a mixture of tea, sex and the city, grocery shopping at ica maxi and being roomates. plus barbeques and humongous amount of cake that we ate on the fields watching burnball. dancing at corona, walks through the swedish summernight, sandwiches outside two in the morning along with irritated discussions about jason mraz/stevie wonder. ice cream in the park with hanna, visits to anton and dannis work and basic element. preparty, pitures and guitarhero. crazy quotes, laughter and love.

you don't need exercise or people, you only need food and your homies. to meet up with, walk home with, wake up with.
michelle branch - breathe

summernight